I don't know. Just feeling like shit. Maybe I'm just tired and this is all because of this stupid flu (or wahtever it is) but still. Just don't feel like doing anything right now. I'm tired of being awake, I'm tired of sitting here on the computer, I'm tired of talking to Late, I'm tired of feeling so... unimportant. That's what it is. I want to feel that I really am important, that someone maybe really wants me to be here.

And why doesn't he speak to me? Why!? I haven't talk about talking to him, not yet. But I know he doesn't speak of it, if something pisses him off. 'Cause something pisses everyone off sometimes. But within these two months he hasn't spoke anything about those things, and I bet there has been stuff like that.

He just thinks that it is miserable. Maybe it is, yes, but that's why this is supposed to do to someone who you trust. Can't explain, and I don't even have to power to think that much. You just have to lower that wall you have around you. And let someone through. Someone you know is not going to hurt you even if he/she is very close to you. Everyone should have someone like that. I do. Have you?

-J.

so, i decided to practise my english and write this blog in english. there may be some mistakes in my text, but let's not care about it. :) i try to write here as often as possible, but i'll tell you here and now that sometimes i just am so lazy, that i won't write even though i'd have time.

haha, the school bell is ringing in my previous school. poor students have to go to school now... my school starts at 9.30am. and because of that, i'll go do something more important than this. hope you have a pleasant time with this. ;)

-jan.